Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Hit the Ground Running At Last

There is this Doves song that I am listening to right now called "Hit the Ground Running at Last" and I have to say, I love it right now. It is just peppy enough to get me motivated and the lines kinda fit where I find myself right now.

I've been home from my travels for 2 months now. Two months of trying to readjust to life where I had left off. Two months of wandering around in a semi-fog, unsure of where I wanted to be- physically as well as emotionally. I feel like I truly am beginning to hit the ground running again. Physically I have moved into a friends house, which has been wonderful. Before this, I was living a few days at a time at different peoples houses which, don't get me wrong, was wonderful to be able to share community with so many people and to feel so loved and cared for but it was incredibly exhausting. Without a place to permanently lay down every night, part of me still felt like I was traveling. Which in a sense I was: I lived out of a car or duffel bag and never planned where I was going to be more than a day at a time. Exhausting. Casey articulated it well when he saw me reach into my purse and pull out my phone charger and started laughing at me. "You really don't have anywhere to stay, do you?" He asked. It was true. When you have to carry around all the basic necessities with you all the time, you truly are still a wanderer.

I am glad to have a place to stay now. I feel like my equilibrium is finally balanced again.

I've also been just bumbling along when it comes to Jobs. Jobs. Eesh. Today I found out that I didn't get a job that I had interviewed for. I knew that I didn't do all that well on it-- I was sick, my mind was foggy, I was stressed and not as prepared as I could have been for it. Still, it was disappointing. The crazy thing was, I kinda knew that I wasn't going to get the job and was subsequent trying my best not to get my hopes up about it. In pursuit of that, I sent out several emails to people that I knew from past employment to get some feelers out there and about a half hour after I found out I didn't get the job I got 3 emails back from people being really encouraging and, while only one of them offered a job opportunity, it was gratifying to get the encouragement.

I know that this isn't the end of the world and I'm off looking for more. So, if anyone reads this and knows of the perfect (or even in the vicinity of that-would-work) job for me, hit me up and let me know. :)